CONGRATULATIONS, YOU HAVE BEEN ACCEPTED!

As I mentioned in my earlier post "Dreams can change", everyone has a dream and someone of us dream far more ambitious than the others. Well in my example I wasn't satisfied with the education here in my country, thats why I wanted a much better education and future for myself. Let's focus on how I got to where I am. I had a different vision from anyone else, I wanted my future to be bright and I wished to be taught by the best doctors and professors in the world not because of their high statuses and high reputation, no. I wanted to be taught to be the best of the best people in this world, I want to be known, I want to be heard in the future. I want to be able to have a voice that can be heard not only by my country but to be heard by the entire world, thats one of the reasons why I wanted to study abroad.

As no one knows how I got my scholarship to Australia, I was born to a strict overly protected family well in my case my dad is the one who's religious while my mom is protected one. But my mom was easier to be convinced about the idea while on the other hand my dad was the hardest! I remember I was studying for my finals right before I finish my senior year, I remember telling him that I wish to study abroad but he just answered me with "No, it's a tough". Which means no you are not going. I knew the answer already but I had to try anyways.

Back then when I was studying for my finals all day I used to remember how dad isn't okay with the idea of me going abroad and whenever I remember that  I used to cry while I was studying. I said to myself I know dad will never ever say yes which made me cry even more... I used to cry at least 3 times a day, while studying, while taking a break and while falling to sleep at night. That cycle kept on going on until the finals began.

While taking exams I saw this notice paper hanging on the walls of my school saying that whoever planning to go abroad must get few papers before its too late and the passport was needed. Guess what? Yes dad had my passport and I couldn't take it behind his back! I was drowning with sadness and pain saying to myself "I WANT THIS!" I wanted it so badly that I found a copy of my passport and went behind my dad's back to get those papers that are needed for the scholarship. That feeling wasn't good I tell you, I felt that I was doing the most stupidest, ignorant and impolite action I have ever made in my entire life. In real life I would never do such a horrible thing to my dad specially not behind his back. but thank god I was accepted and everything and yes I told dad that I applied for ACK! lol
I hated that I lied but my awesome sister and brothers gave me strength to at least try and see if its meant for me to go or not, and I'm still grateful to them so much <3

 I remember when I told dad that I was accepted in Australia, he was shocked he thought that I was kidding but he kept calm and I started to feel awkward thinking inside my head "what is he going to say? will he just go with the flow? like I already applied and everything! or will he say no, and make me apply for a university that is located in my country?". Al-hamd-le-allah dad showed a little acceptance to the idea and I told him "Dad this is my dream! this what I have always wanted, please let me go! other girls go study aboard and fulfill what they have always wanted, why me?" He didn't say much but later on he told my brother finish up with her papers so she won't be late. Thats when I knew that dad finally was okay with the idea of my going abroad :') And until this very day he has been supporting me <3

what this post means if you want to go abroad and you have a family like mine, try convincing them with reasonable reasons, reasons that they can't deny nor ignore! try convincing the easier one of your parents first so you would get their support. try explaining why you want to go abroad? is the major that you want isn't offered here? or you just simply want to study in the best universities in the world?. Again I tell you reasons that are convincing and undeniable. To me the best weapon is, is to compare yourself with the other people who are studying aboard in the best universities around the world. it always works and if not well that was already written for you long time ago. no need to feel bad about it. But trust me trying is better than regretting later :D best of lucks to all those who wish to study abroad in the future <3

Dreams "can" change

Everyone has a dream, ever since we were children we dreamt to become a doctor, engineer, teacher or a leader. Every one of us had their own hopes, dreams and goals. Some of us keep that dreams until we grow up to achieve it, and some of us change that dreams from time to time as we grow up.

Well in my case, I had so many dreams throughout my life. It kept on changing over and over as I grew up. I remember my first dream was to be a petroleum engineer, I know most girls would probably wanted to be a princess or a mermaid. But to me, I was a very realistic person, I wasn't that kind of girl who believed in fantasies and fairy tails. Anyways I chose petroleum engineering since my country relies on petroleum for it's economy.

Then after that I dreamt to become a doctor, who help save lives, and wear this awesome plain white lab-coat. I know what you're thinking that's very childish of me. In the 9th grade I had a new dream which was to be an accountant. I remember exactly why I wanted to be an accountant, I used to look up to my aunt H. so much that I wanted to be just like her in every single way.

Then again they told me dream bigger than that, but as I entered high school I was dreamless. I was literary this girl who didn't have any dreams what so ever! It wasn't a nice feeling I tell you that. Throughout high school I tried to find myself, my identity.

It was tough I still hadn't found this dream that I wanted to pursue in life until I reached right to my senior year. Right before starting school I used to watch this TV series called "House M.D" on summer vacation which was about this genius, ignorant, mean yet caring (in his own way) doctor. As I watched episode after episode I found myself so indulged with the medical details and I actually tried to memorize so many medical definitions which in my case was really interesting.

I kept on watching the series until I reached that point where I said "you know what, I am going to be a doctor, to be exact I'm going to be a SURGON!". Yup most of you must be shocked thinking "Why would she want to be a surgeon?". Well let me tell you, its true being a doctor is difficult and hard, but being a surgeon is far much difficult and much much challenging. Maybe thats why I picked it, I wanted to challenge myself. And to be honest I thought it was COOL!

haha I know I might sound weird, but that's just how I feel when I think of surgery. Back to dreams where I'm finally a senior, now I had 1 year to compensate my low grades and bring the required GPA to enter medical school. I've worked very hard to achieve my dreams, but unfortunately it was too late to compensate my shortcomings.

But everything happens for a reason right? I'm not going to deny the sadness that I felt after graduating from high school for not gaining the required GPA. But after graduation I applied for a scholarship to Australia.

I wanted to go to the United Kingdom to be honest, but they weren't offering the major that I wanted. Afterwards I chose this major that caught my attention and applied for it. And hamd-le-allah I'm just satisfied to what Allah have wrote for me, and I think that it is true that he (Allah) might have closed a door on you, but believe me he will always open far more interesting doors for you. Always believe in Allah, and never be sad over not achieving what you have always wanted. Cause in-sha-allah, Allah will be storing for you a much better future. Hope what happened to me will help others to overcome their sadness and agony. Always be positive, nothing is worth taking away your smile :D

#Believe

Introduction

I thought of writing an introduction to introduce myself to you all. My name is Rawan, And I'm a 18 years old. I'm cheerful, overly nice and kind, funny, hyper, crazy at times and mostly quiet. People see me at first as this very very shy person who doesn't open up to people fast, well thats true! But once you get to know me I become a completely different person, A person you wouldn't expect.

I love to see the world in a positive way and hope for a good life. I'm not gonna lie I used to see the world in a very negative view, well I had some certain situations and circumstances that made me that way but not anymore. You have to see the positivity in everything even if the possibilities were very low, just never give up hope. umm I'm not sure what to really write but... let me talk a little more about myself :D

I'm very very very open minded in a way you can't even believe it, even my sister says that my mind is so liberal. I don't like to hang out with people who are closed minded, because they are so hard to get along with, but that doesn't mean that I wouldn't befriend them. I'm very open to everyone and I wouldn't judge them in any kind of way. To me those people out there who are judgmental to people that they don't even know are..... are pathetic really.

Another thing about me is that I'm very careful when it comes to what comes out of my mouth, I wouldn't want to say something that I'd regret later. In addition, I love to analyze people's personalities, it helps me understand what kind of person I'm dealing with. Anyways I'm not perfect am just cautious ;p

When it comes to friends, I had so many amazing friends, but I lost them all, because I made my circumstances take over me, and made me miserable, and this how I ended up alone. Until this day I regret treating them that way, I wish I held to their friendship very tightly, but I guess high school friends, and classmates don't stay the same after some time.

To me I had this two friends/classmates that I used to open up to them, but they have changed in a way that I didn't recoginze who they were anymore. Anyways life goes on and as my friend said "Friends come and go, just like money does". Now I'm thankful to Allah to have given me such great friends <3 Hope nothing change between us.

Alright wouldn't want to write so much on introduction haha! All that talk means in the end that life goes on and there is no stopping in it. We just have to go with the flow, and live knowing that nothing ever stays the same :D